Yes, it is a post, finally a post. Many times I have stopped by my sad and neglected blog. Thought about writing a post but then clicked on... The whole point of me starting a blog was to keep family and friends informed...actually, my chica Carrie started it for me, came up with the name, got it all going with a pic and a post. So I began. Then it became a journal for me, as I lived close to family and good friends, then as we moved to the Midwest it became a life-line for family and friends. Over the years my fan and friend base fell. However about every day a hopeful hit from Idaho Falls would always appear on my little tracker. I knew every day that was my father-in-law. As Facebook became the easier and less time consuming way to keep up with friends and family I fell behind on blog post...then would come the e-mail informing me of my over site to post something, anything of his "favorite boys in the whole world." And so I kept the cumbersome blog going. Then I realized as I have stopped by my little blog you can't journal on Facebook, you can't explain the journey, you can't really show the real you on Facebook. So here I am taking a look back at a good year but really tough year in my little family's life.
THE GOOD:
Deadwood South Dakota: Our first ever retreat as husband and wife since our first year of marriage: Hawaii and Las Vegas. Hubby and I had originally planned to wait a year before starting a family, however little Jayson had other plans as he arrived one month early and 15 days past our first anniversary. With his arrival it has been kids and career growth ever since. We had so much fun, even though I was PREGNANT! Yes, I was 7 months HUGE prego!! We just hanged out, shopped and ate at restaurants at our own pace without rushing with kids! Oops, I forgot to mention, I am a chip off the old block (my dad, not my mom) and I gambled. As usual hubby stood by, but never gambled once, and as usual I won enough to buy hubby, myself and two other friends breakfast! The kids went to Jake and Nancy's house and didn't even miss me!!! (Good job Nanc-and I guess Jake too)!
Baby Connor: This was the best of 2011!! Connor was our little surprise. After our fun surprise with Jayson, we had no idea we would have to work so hard to get another. There are 4 years between Jayson and Carson because I had to do infertility for Carson. So having gone through infertility we thought we would have to do that every time to have a baby from here on out. However, on a hot August afternoon I was cleaning and cooking for the Elders. I felt horrible the whole time. When Jay finally came home to help I told him I felt like I was going to throw up. He asked if I had the flu and I said I didn't know...fast forward to the next day I took a little pregnancy test that confirmed to my huge surprise that a third little baby was on the way. We were thrilled to find out that it was another little boy, especially me. Instead of having to run out and spend tons of money on all new stuff in pink I got to finally shop for the the baby items on my dream list. Finally I got my black wood crib and matching changing table/dresser, the warming and massage rocker and other fun things! Aside from my shopping fun we are all just head over heals excited to have a new baby in our family! As the days ticked by I was showing signs this little guy was bigger then had been originally thought. My OB of choice had been changed in the middle of my pregnancy and the new OB was preparing me for a large boy! Jayson and Carson both were little guys and the new ultra-sound tech was estimating at 4 weeks from my due date Connor was weigh in at 8lbish!!! I was scared! That was huge in my baby experience. It was not a mystery though this baby was big, my body was feeling it too. So on April 8th, a Friday, I reported to my doctor for a regular visit determined to pay him off to break my water, I had had it!!
No matter what I said, the money offer, and the sad pleading eyes that even worked on likes of my dad, he said it was too soon and he could not do that. With pride hurt, since I vowed to my husband I was going to get my way and he was going to start me, I left back home still very large and uncomfortable.
Same day, just that night, Jay was gone and the boys and I watched Netflix movies (Gone with the Wind-mom edited version). I went to bed and in the middle of the night woke up coughing off and on. A cough or two later and my water broke, the most humiliating thing I have gone through yet, drive to the hospital, get out of the car and into a wheel chair, undress into the gown and get into my hospital bed with water gushing with every contraction and sudden move. I felt so embarrassed!
However in the end I ended up with the SWEETEST little guy ever! He is sooooo happy and soooo adorable! We all can't get enough of his laugh, his smiles, his sweet spirit has blessed each of us. He melts my heart, as each of my sweet babies have, but this is Connor's moment to dazzle me with his charm and cuteness! He is the blessing Heavenly Father sent before such sadness and loss for my husband. Our little guy reminds hubby and I of his dear father so much. He is such an early bird and very punctual, he is a time clock and knows when it is food time, when it is sleep time, and his routine is his thing.
It has been so fun getting to know this sweet little guy! Best event in 2011 for our family!
